I’ve Probably Lost My Goddamn Mind

I haven’t worked out in…awhile. I used to work out a lot. Every day, even. And then I stopped. I was discouraged from not being where I wanted to be at the end of a year. I was tired from working out every damn day. I was bored because working out by yourself? Is really damn boring. So, I took a break. And excuse, excuse, excuse, sickness, excuse, MY CAT ATE MY GYM SHOES.

But now, here I am in the middle of holiday season, looking at old photos going, Hey, I have the same shirt as that fat chi- oh hell. It’s a funny thing, looking at photos of yourself and being surprised by what you see. Because, I mean, I live with it every day. I should know what I look like. But in my head I feel like this.

omg did you just post a picture of yourself in a bikini?

So, it comes as a surprise, still.

So, today I did pulled out my shoes and did this.

oh hey there, remember us?

Now I can’t breathe and my heart is going, WHAT THE HELL WOMAN, ENOUGH! and if you’ll excuse me I need to go find my lungs and pretend that I didn’t just post a picture of myself in a bikini on the internet.

It won’t change fix things right away, but it’s a start.


9 thoughts on “I’ve Probably Lost My Goddamn Mind

  1. Katie says:

    Yay for doing it! I know it’s a pain in the ass to work out by yourself. I like to work out in the morning because then it’s DONE and I don’t have to think about it for the rest of the day. One problem. I work at 7 am. Try finding someone willing to work out with you at 5 am. Not easy at all. Stick with it. I’ll be there with you in January on the resolution bandwagon. Also, the “I need to fit in that damn wedding dress” bandwagon.

    • I like to work out first thing too (years of early morning swim practices conditioned me for that) but the problem is I’m not a morning person. And without the threat of 25 other angry swimmers to get me out of bed? It doesn’t happen very often. Plus add in the insomnia…and yeah.

  2. Tabata style routines will always kick your ass. The goal is to hit aerobic levels that would be dangerously high if sustained, which is why it burns so many calories. Lots of studies on Tabata and other High Intensity Interval Training have shown significant improvement in overall fitness, so it really isn’t some sort of scam.

    Plus, you will never experience a longer four minutes.

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